This past week rocked my world. A tiny child weighing 7.1lb swept my feet right out from under me. I am changed by her arrival in many interesting ways. I remember that overwhelming love that swept over me when I first looked into the eyes of my newborn sons. I felt of mix of joy and also of pain; this new love was so huge that all my fears and anxieties of their safety, health, faith,and future crashed in on my “new mommy” heart. Will I make mistakes? Will I know how to love them well? It was all so new.
This little angel caused some of that overwhelming love to come sweeping back through my heart! Such a big love!! But there was also a new emotion; watching my son becoming a daddy himself; seeing that overwhelming love Dave has for his little girl, causing him to literally feel sick at the very thought of not knowing how to best care for her. Also watching him love his bride with such rich compassion; it has been astounding for me as a mother.
Another emotion that erupted in my heart was joy in watching my daughter in law ( and friend) make every effort to birth a healthy child~ she worked extremely hard. I was reminded of my first days as a mommy as I watched Azlan love on her precious little girl, so attentive and kind;she is a very special mommy, I’m very proud of her.
They chose the name Mimi for me; a banner which I will proudly wear. I will honor my responsibility to this little life in every way I can. And after kissing her sweet cheeks hundreds of times I will tickle her, snuggle her, sing to her, whisper loving thoughts to her, pray constantly for her, and love her parents.
Scout Jubilee Salciccioli, I adore you.
Remember the game where you and a buddy would hold your breath and wait to see who could hold it the longest? As the minutes passed there would finally be a huge GASP and the participants would take in the much needed air! That has been me for the past 10 weeks! For the past 10 weeks I have been holding my breath, carrying a secret that has rocked my world!! I can finally let it out! WE WILL BE GRANDPARENTS IN APRIL! The joy of this news is indescribable. First I cry, then I rejoice, and then I cry.
Legacy. The family DNA of the Koops and the Salciccioli family is being passed on to a new generation, into this new precious life. My heart is stirred deeply at the thought of this.
Watching Dave and Azlan walk into this new blessing; seeing them tearily recognizing God’s sweet favor for them and acknowledging the love of family that surrounds them, has been sincerely heartwarming.
I am 54….I got here pretty fast…my baby will be a daddy for the first time and that churns up so many emotions. Yet as I watch Dave and Azlan I am moved by their maturity, their love for their unborn child, and the care they have taken as they approach this new season. They will be amazing parents.
I know, when they look into the eyes of the child they have created together, they will be smitten at such a deep level; love more deeply than they have ever loved before. I cried learning they were pregnant, and I am sure I will cry when I hold our precious “beloved child” for the first time!
Call me Grandma or granny, I do not care………….just CALL ME to babysit, snuggle, care for, and support this precious little life…….My arms and heart are abundantly ready!
Overwhelmed by God’s favor! Excited about the season ahead!